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Log 12


It's Been 3 days. I was feeling week after masterbating. But hey i am back again. My mom keeps begging me to pray. But i don't. I am still wasting my life in discord and video games. Heck my dad is now telling me to online gambling because all I do is sit on my butt and scroll on my phone. I can't blame him. But he will blame me. I hate him. And he is standing me and between Allah. Now that I think about my words. I am putting my dad above Allah. Thats Shrick. Astagfirullah.

From now one. I will keep posting images To actually keep a record of what i am Doing. And present myself better. Because I have friends but i don't care about them enough to make myself look better. But i do about you guys. Maybe i am insane.

I know the concept of free bees now. As you can see i got free government money after standing in line for 1 hour. I Got ₹290. I took ₹100 and gave me the rest to my dad as he asked for. Women are annoying as they were cutting lines. I can make the women joke but I wont. I am mature enough not to do that.

I have to go to the bank Tommorow alone because my dad wants me to sign some papers. This will be my first time. But hey there is a First Time for everything.

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