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Log 2

So last Night in my first log i was doing that self reflection thing and it was honestly stupid. It was stupid because Fuck me. I dont know why i think this all the time. I would randomly say Fuck Me through out the day. I believe i unconsciously hate myself thats why i say that. I am Still addicted to masterbation and i relapsed a few hours ago. It was before i wrote Log 1. Thats why i believe i am being less dramatic here because now i have post nut clarity.

I Still have a lot of Hatred in my heart and my parents keep pocking my sore spot by fighting. I guess thats a little bitch move to justify my laziness.

Right now in the mids of writing this i was about to abuse my little sister. This has to stop because if i keep doing this i will hate myself more. Fuck fuck again this happend when my parents talked about money. I believe allah is preparing me for something more. 

As my i hate my mom and dad. Forgiving them have eased my heart. Alhamdulilla.

As for my morbid and horrific Chai chats for which i will go to jail if someone saw them. I will try to unload my dark thoughts here.

Yall will call me a psycopath if i unloaded my mind. 

I feel so disgusting after masterbating. I dont feel good until i take a shower. 

I will expand on those later. I will try to use my  Blog to vent more.

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